And an honest embrace
For where I lay it’s you I keep,
This changing world I fall asleep
With you all I know is I’m coming home,
|—||Vanessa Carlton (Home)|
|—||Vanessa Carlton (Home)|
As the Thanksgiving holiday approches I think of all the things I am thankful for.
First I am thankful for my loving Fiance. He is always there for me no matter what I am going through and no matter how hard or easy things get. He loves me, and even when we get in our little tuffs we come out stronger and more connected than before, understanding each other just a bit more than we had. I am thankful that he sacrifices himself for me and puts me before himself. I am thankful that he is as much in love with God as I am and that he has dedicated his life to Him. I lvoe him so much, there are just no words to describe how I feel. I love his music, the sounds of his heart played out through his guitar and drums. I love how he trys his best to make me the happiest on earth. It brings my heart great joy and excitement that we will be wed in about 9 months. I know, for a fact, He is going to make me the happiest girl ever. <3
I am thankful for my family. Even though we may not see eye to eye a lot I know the love they have for me in their hearts, and I hope they know the love I have for them in mine. I love how when I just need to get away they are there. I love that they are giving and fun and just accepts me for me, even when I do mess up.
I am thankful for my friends. Thankful for the talks I have with them at 3am to the times i have just hanging out with them on a regular day after work. I love my friends and am so thankful that they encourage me to be closer to Christ and challenge me to live out my faith even when I don’t feel like it. They keep me going and show me what is important in life, to show love to others and let them see the light of Christ inside of me. I am so thankful for them and I don’t know what I would do without them.
I am thankful for my leaders. They inspire me to be the better person I know I can be. They push me to grow in the grace of God and to live more in the word. I am so thankful for them. They teach me how to deal in situations with grace, patience and understanding. Without my leaders I would not be the strong person I am today. Because of the inspiration from them I have been more involved in the Word of God than I have in a long time. I love them and Thank God for them and their influance on my life.
I am thankful for my God, meeting me as I am and where I am. I am thankful that He sent his only son to die on the cross for me to forgive my sins and promise me a home in Heaven with him. I am thankful that he forgives and leads me to the life He knows is best for me. I am soo thankful that He is a teacher and a healer and a redeemer of my life and of others.
Last I am thankful for my enemies. Without them I would not have the challenges in my life to make me a stronger, smarter person. I thank God for those who want to try to bring me and my loved ones down. They help to teach me patience and understanding and how to love stronger.
I hope as you have time off of work you can reflect on the things that you are thankful for!
As I was pondering about life tonight I thought of something worth writing about.
Think of how many times we meet new people, form a deep friendship type love for them, form a bond that we never think can be broken, then when we are not around them much we forget about them. We fail to keep in touch thinking that we are too busy with school and work and “life” that we have no time to catch up.
I feel like this has happened to some of my relationships. I am very heavy hearted with I think of the people that I use to be very close to, and for some reason or another, have not stayed in touch with. It is crazy how many people I can think of when thinking of this situation.
Then, I think about God. My relationship with Him and how much I say I am in love with him and how much I strive to live “life” for Him. I think of the time I give to Him and how much time I take out of my day to catch up with Him, telling him what is going on in my crazy, too busy for anything life. And all the while I am missing out on the conversation He wants to have with me, telling me how much He loves me and what He has in store for me. Telling me how much He loves to give me strength when I am week and How much he strives to have one on one time with me. I miss out on Him telling me how beautiful I am to Him and how much it breaks His heart when I go against His will for my life. I miss out on Him telling me that He has it all figured out for me, and all I have to do is trust in Him and let Him deal with the drama and stress that brings me down so often.
I don’t want to miss out on these things anymore. I want to strive so much to spend time with God that I look forward to it and get excited about it each and every day.
I also don’t want to miss out on the love and friendships I have been blessed with and have fallen out of contact with. I want people in my life, all kinds of them.
Just some thoughts on life tonight…
So, yesterday in Kid’s church I was teaching the 10-12 year olds and had them create a page with their missions from God. These are the missions they wrote…
Change the World.
My Mission is to tell others about God!!
My mission from God is to tell other people about them no matter what color they are or who they are. And to tell them that God is our Salvation!! And I need to obey my parents and help others.
My mission is to help anyone in need or give to the needy.
I think my mission is to be a pastor like my dad.
To keep my room clean.
My mission is to own my own TV show to show people what God made.
These were the kid’s missions. I did not tell them what to write or even give example of what to write to them. They chose these. God is speaking. <3
I love autumn, the feeling I get when the leaves start changing colors.
The chill that sweeps through the air after the heat of summer.
The blowing of the wind in my hair and on my cheeks.
I love Halloween, and everything that goes along with it.
I love the smell of pumpkin scented candles and the hues of orange and yellow and red all around.
I love the cozy feeling I get snuggled up in a sweater and blanket.
It all feels just a little bit more homey, more comfortable, more acceptable to who I am and who I like to be.
So, today was the first SWAT of the year, and although there were not that many people there, I had a blaast. It is so fun hanging out with your girls, learning timbrel drills and just having a slap happy time. I am so glad that I have become better friends with Katie and Kayla, and I am happy that everyone is getting along.
It has been soo long since I have been able to just be a part of something and not have to lead it. It has also been a very long time since I have played timbrels…and I miss it…
I am so thankful that I get to have this time with my friends at least once a month. I am so thankful that I have the awesome job that I have, and that I can meet awesome people and get to know them.
I miss my old friends though, I am tired of following them on facebook or twitter or myspace (yep, I still check that!). I want to hang out with them again, act foolish and silly like when we were in High School. I know that we have all changed but I also know that there is still that immature High school-er in the back of our hearts and minds, I have hope in that.
So, with all this joy and emo-ness I need to get MYSELF in gear. I am wanting to see my best friend from high school and hang out with her for more than just a couple hours, and I am making this a goal of mine to accomplish before the winter and nasty weather sets in. I know that I need to make some sacrifices and I am hoping that She will as well.
I will keep ya’ll updated!
Lol, yupp through Jade.
I have been really good lately. I am super busy at work getting the kids activities started back up at the church. I am also super busy planning my wedding…oh man it is waaaay more planning then I thought…but its great!
I need to come and hang out with you and Jade sometime sooooon!
How have you been???!